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R.I.P.

Wed Nov 4, 2009, 8:12 PM
I'm not really sure where I'm going with my life right now. Things have been kind of rough lately and I've noticed that I haven't been paying any attention to my art of my DA at all. I'm sorry for that, but I'm sure it's gotten to the point where I'm almost forgotten. Understandable.

Recently, my boyfriends old friend from when he was in middle school died. He commited suicide after talking to my boyfriend one night. He'd been in a state of severe depression for a long time and it converted into anger and conviction. He began blaming my boyfriend for all their other friends who had also commited suicide in the past and telling him how no body could ever love him. That was a lie. My boyfriend came to me in search for advice and told me all the things his friend had said to him. I was angry at the man who was hurting his friend and my boyfriend so I told my boyfriend to tell him to back off if he was doing those things to him and constantly hurting him. So he did...shortly afterwards, his friend drove his car into a brick wall after visiting all their old friends graves...and he passed away that morning.

I feel gravely responsible.

Things have settled from that now though. I've been shying away from drawing and getting more into photography right now. So I may be posting some pictures I've been taking soon.

I'm sorry to all who actually take the time to read this. I miss you all and I wish I could draw more :(

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~Konya651 Nov 4, 2009, 8:17:40 PM
:hug: I'm really sorry that happened, but you can't blame yourself for this. I know you feel responsible, but you were trying to protect your boyfriend. >.< :tighthug: It's really sad that he took the path that he did, but all we can really do is try to push them in the right direction.
You'll never be forgotten. >3 I can't wait to see some photos.

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~hirurux Nov 4, 2009, 8:35:02 PM
just like konya says, you shouldnt blame yourself. you did good protecting your boyfriend and i hope you can see that.
good luck k?

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~BioShroom Nov 5, 2009, 4:42:46 AM
:hug: Oh, you did nothing wrong. In fact, you did good. People just tend to take things too seriously and do stupid decisions in result.

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~Shadow-da-Hedgie Nov 5, 2009, 4:51:25 AM
If you don't want to draw anymore, don't draw. If you want to take photos, take photos. Do as you wish, Olly. ^^

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~Tannith Nov 5, 2009, 2:21:05 PM
Aww :(

You did the right thing son. Don't get too hung up over it.

And I bake you cake.

I look forward to your photos :3
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~kWoPOr Nov 6, 2009, 11:58:06 AM
strange time this is being.. everybody trying for suicides, i know two people who tried suicides last month too.. i guess the end of the world is realy hanging in the air !! :ohnoes:

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~Kiryuuzaki Nov 7, 2009, 7:19:14 AM
Don't blame yourself, Olly. You couldn't have known what would happen.
I love you. I'm just a phone call away.
<3

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~Niki101 Nov 9, 2009, 5:13:14 AM
That is so sad. But don't feel responsible, I know that it seems so, but it isn't. Don't blame yourself, okay?
And also I don't mind if you start taking photo's and leave drawing, you can do what you want to do.

Please feel better.

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~PTLunknown Nov 9, 2009, 4:33:29 PM
Thank dear, your words mean a lot to me.
And thank you too for accepting my photography too. I'm gonna try and keep drawing some what.

And don't worry, I'll feel fine soon enough.

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